I only see myself with you
So I told myself, disappointment comes once in awhile in life to makes us stronger & I'm actually quite tired of saying that. I say that to make myself feel better. I mean, it's true & I thought of that to make myself feel better. Sigh, so sick of all these. ): & when I keep repeating them, they no longer comfort me like how it used to in the beginning.I'm happy. But I can't say that I'm truly happy. Perhaps part of me is, the other isn't. I can't eat, I can't sleep well. I woke up at 8 this morning & lazed around in bed till 11 for baby's text. Enough said hur, I'll be fine. I don't know when but.. soon. Sigh.I wanna go out. Out of this fucking house. It's damn empty. Everyone's out, I should have just tag along. Fuck. Baby can't fucking go out 'cos of some fucking reasons I don't know what. I think was 'cos her dad was coming back. Whatever it is, I'll be just fine. =/ & baby, I'm not blaming you or whatever. I'm just feeling frustrated yeah. I'll be fine.Bestaye's with bf, Sassy's with gf, Qiaos's going out with her friend.Supposed to join Sass but no, baby can't go, I'm not going either, how bright.
Qiaos asked me to join them but no, the two friends haven't meet up for awhile, it'd be so weird if I'm there. & I'm not even close to that friend of hers.I'll find some form of entertainment at home, somehow, in one way or another. If not when my hair dries, I'll go to sleep until tonight. No thinking, no crying, no sucide notes/thoughts. Pack your bags now & get away, they're catching unto us.I took 1hour 18 mins & counting to finish my lunch. I really don't feel like eating, I just plain squeezing it down my throat 'cos if I don't eat now, I won't have anything till tonight. Fuck, I'm still feeling ________.I'll blog later when my memory decides to let me remember what I actually thought of blogging just now.Cheryl & I are talking on msn, how happy. I miss that pretty many. :)REPLIES!
NING, No spamming done dearie! Chinese sucks la. Even the chinese teachers suck. Ugh she keep coming over to my table & look what I'm doing. Hahah. I hate it when she look at me.
QIAOLIN, You better start working hard. We'll study out soon ok, study die us! :D
SHARILYN, Opps, I did it again! Hahah. I love you shar. (:
CAROLINE, We gotta talk soon ok! I miss you la.
XAVIER, I think I've said my piece in my texts, so yeah. Don't worry ok baby. I'm sure things are gonna be fine. I know my entry doesn't sound fine but I will be. You know how fast I'll recover, somehow. It doesn't really matter actually, not spending enough time together. I guess your dad just want you to be home & spend less time with people like me. That's what I thought. What's more when he knows where you go, who you meet up with. You know he doesn't like you being a _______. Just make him happy for once ok. :) We still text, we still talk on the phone what. Don't worry ok. Though I know it was gonna be a disappointment but when you let out the truth, my heart ached a little. We had so much heartaches this month & I think April's gonna be a better month. All these unhappiness will be over soon. When school reopens for you, it'll be better. You wouldn't have to sit all day at home & have some fresh air outside. :) I don't wanna go back to the days when I was grounded. How terrible, I know how it feels like ok. I'm right here baby. Hugs! <3
I'm finally talking to Eliza babe! That girl's pretty & damn sexy in her photoshoot. :D Whee!I'm feeling much better. Eliza's like my medicine. Hot, sexy & pretty medicine.Whoo!I'm like your question & you gotta be my answer.<3,
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